Leaving

Swirling black clouds
Above my grey world
Suck my strength
Fear of damnation
rejection
resentment
tired of living regret
lost in lonliness
did I send a beacon
why did you come
what did you think this would be
look at me
no one buys the busted tv
in the far, dusty corner
of the junk store
used and broken
nothing but a token
how long did you think this would last
it's fun when we're free
where we don't have to be
it's not so cool
when I'm begging you please
wish we had happy love
the kind in the books
for kids like we used to be
what am i supposed to do
with out you
what should i do with this love
this love i can't push away
love that is not certain
it all depends
when love isn't love
is this how it ends